Sunday, November 04, 2007 1:22 AM
maybe i've been too sensitive. it's the third person already. but still, they say they're okay with me. (: and that makes me really happy! because i have one less person who doesn't like me. it really makes my day! -smilesbigbig.
but as for you .. i don't know how to say.
i feel that one person should try to build up a friendship with one person, before building another one. erm, crap. that's not what i mean, but .. it's somewhere along that line. it's not nice to make people feel that your friendship with another person is more important than with him/her.
i don't know. don't make me start doubting you okay? if you think it's referring to you, then maybe it is because you are guilty of not appreciating your friendships. so start appreciating them! (:
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i just don't understand. why one can be so hypocrite. i really see no need to be so. it just makes everyone not like you at the end of the day. so, what's the point?
i don't know. i really thought you were damn nice, till everything started happening. can you prove me with actions that what i'm seeing and hearing ain't true?
i treasure my friendship with you. but it really doesn't seem like you do. it hurts when you seem happier with other people instead of me. maybe i'm just over-sensitive, but i just think it's damn sad. it feels so .. one sided of me.
what should i do now?
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i feel really horrible about myself.
i feel so horrible that i think i should just be isolated on an island to die a friendless person. i feel like i'm not good enough and don't deserve to be anyone's friend.
it sucks. it's like everything is taking a toll on you all at one go. and yet you can't share with anyone, and you've got to pretend like everything's alright.
why does it rain here in my heart.
